why is luv so painful n not so easy to let go..

2010-11-02T20:02:00.000+08:00

Hey guys, it's been a long time since august? i guess? Hmmm nvm abt tat, since 'N' levels r over. Our secondary sch lives r over and recently alot has happen to me this yr. Only this yr! Had a painful experiences this yr, compare to those 3 yrs. This yr sure is painful and got a needle inside of me. Sigh.. ):

Forget abt tat, since it's over. It's over! Everything is gone & it will nvr be back! 4ever!!! I would lyk to thanks all my friends hu has comfort me & things they tell me. I'm sincerely say "Thanks alot for this words u guys have tell me & i will 4ever rmb to it, always! (:". I'm a happy person now, no longer being sad. Being sad won't change back to facts on wad i have done. ):

Ever since N levels r over, it's been bored staying at home. Hmmm guess is wad they do, after holidays. Go outside to work, search those job interview. Is wad normal they do after all those stress r over. I would lyk to say times has change, so do human behavior and etc..

There is something inside my heart, which is been going through my mind throughout this yr. Hmmm i guess it won't be open 4ever. Sigh.. ):

"Although we aren't in the same pri & sec sch but we will 4ever be friends 7 classmates in our lifes, Don't u agree? ):".

2010-08-17T21:54:00.000+08:00

Currently have nth to say, till all exam are over. Then i shall post it, sorry about that..:(

2010-07-31T14:20:00.000+08:00

So unlucky ytd, fall sick. Sigh plus exam is coming around the corner. Die liao, sigh..:(

2010-07-05T23:52:00.002+08:00

Hi guys, how was ur days today? Fine?
I just have eaten my dinner as just now didn't eat. Thanks to my dad for buying it for me ya. Tysm. :)

Tmr going to sch le. Aww, feel lyk slping ya. I'm tried, see u guys tmr ya. Night night. :)

2010-06-18T01:10:00.003+08:00

Hi, sorry for not posting so long plus many things have happen to me ya. So hope u all don mind. Alright, shall post today's things which is 17/6/2010.

Went to the school's 25th anniversary at Esplanade Concert Hall (Seize The Moment). At first i donno how to go de but look at the map and think how to go den noe how to go le. At least didn't get lost. Luckily me. ^^ Saw Aloysius, Rachel, Syafiq, Fhir, Cimin & Sabrina when i arrive quite long. Some of the teachers, stall's uncle & auntie plus some ex-students as well. The concert starts at 7.30pm and end at 9.30pm. Is a nice concert but some is quite bored. And most of all, i enjoy it. :-) Can say is a nice concert but got one part tat make me wanna cry cause is very touching and think abt the past matter. Hmmm hope time cn turn back but it's impossible matter. Each day pass so fast as the earth is changing so do ppl as well.

After the concert ends, went to Tampines Interchange with Cimin & Sabrina cox Cimin wants to buy bread. After tat, went to Macdonald to buy Milkshack and Cimin buys Machicken (If i didn't spell wrong, if yes tell me. ty. ^^) Took bus 67 to eat my dinner but cn consider supper le cox reach there is abt 10 plus and is going to 11pm le. So reach home, took a rest and den go bath. Now don wan slp yet cox checking something on com's stuff.

That's all for today. ^^

Many things have happen to me,

Like losing a friend cox do something wrong.

R/s matter but think through le. (Half = 50%)

And so on which i forgotten le.

Sigh, is hard to forget the pain i had. Argh, for now. Focus for my studies first and think nth else but books. Try to overcome my lazyness. I guess is gonna be hard..

*Will not be often to blog but once a week will blog a bit. So take care guys and my friends. :-)

2010-05-04T21:04:00.002+08:00

On my way home, saw Ms Winne Tang at POSB outside. chat a bit then send her regards to her. hopefully she will visit us when she is free. hmmm miss those days in sec 2 ya, is kinda unforgettable. but time won't let us go back to where those happy moments we had. those friends, teacher and etc. wad use thinking abt? it won't come back.

Is lyk a piece of paper, u write then suddenly a wind blew. it flew somewhere else tat cnt find it anyway. so it will nvr be back to u again.

Sigh, no use blaming myself. but i really hope one day. those wonderful memories we had, will be back again. hopefully bahhx.

Sigh..:(

*Gone our separate ways on tat day - 2/2/2010

Sigh..:(

2010-05-02T20:14:00.003+08:00

Too much things have happen recently. so will be less update le. kinda say no mood to blog le.

Sigh..:(

2010-04-28T22:06:00.000+08:00

Today is the start of the exam as well as my birthday too.
Sigh, y must be on tat day leh? cnt be other day mar? last yr also the same as today.
Sigh..
Is alright..

Today english paper 1 quite hard but paper 2 okok only. which is 50-50. hmmm i don't think i cn pass. pass is only juz pass. lyk 50 marks and above? hmmm not so sure.

Anyway wish all my friends and mei mei all the best plus pass with flying colours too.^^

2010-04-27T22:59:00.000+08:00

Hmmm tmr is the start of the exam plus my nightmare as well.. sigh..

Hope everything will be fine plus hope u won't feel stress, my mei mei.^^
Just try do ur best for tmr. got anything, cn find me or talk to me abt it.

Try all ur best, to all my friends and buddies too.^^

That's all for today, kinda lazy to post today plus nth interesting de.

Dates:
13/1/2010 - 3 months & 14 days
2/2/2010 - 2 months & 25 days

Sigh..

2010-04-24T21:22:00.004+08:00

Date:
13/1/2010 - 3months & 11 days (When me and her)
2/2/2010 - 2 months & 22 days (Without her)

Alright, let's talk abt today and ytd..

Friday - 23/4/2010

First, 2 period of Science,
Was teaching petrolchemical chapt A2 (if spell wrong, pls tell me). althought is was bored at first but listen abit then feel lyk quite okay le. hmmm althought did some drawing. but i don't understand.. sigh, nvm..

2 period of P.E.,
Combine class today and retest for some fail they 2.4km running. some today run as for another class. hmmm it when smooth but later on, saw my mei getting tired while running. i wonder what's wrong with my mei? i don't know plus don't dare to ask so much.

Recess.,
Went to the detention area to get some rest plus tired as well. after that, ms soh's class went down do some project or something? i not so sure abt it. hmmm then after tat went to change to uniform then went to canteen to report. went to ask mr ow tat is there a nid to report today? he say yes plus he forgot to tell our class just now.

1 period of English,
I forgot le, so i shall skip this part.

Lastly, 3 period of Math,
Don't wish to talk abt it, make me fed up plus angry!!!!

Afternoon, went to aloy's house do some com stuff plus went to study with andrea they all. study till 9 plus then walk walk till the main road. whereby we go separate ways. donno y when walking, no mood de plus thinking of something..
Sigh..

Saturday - 24/4/2010 (Today)

Went to the ITE parents talking to noe more abt ITE courses. well actually, is my parents wanna noe abt wad's ITE is all abt. so they sign-up on their talks to learn more abt it. hmmm nth else to talk abt today. quite bored too..

2010-04-21T22:52:00.001+08:00

Today not gonna talk abt sch things as nth to write abt as well.

Anyway i'm saying here to say sorry to u all tat at chinese class, go straight to library.
Teacher ask me to tell u all go de mar? u guys cnt blame me de? also not my fault wad? want blame, blame teacher la. blame me for wad? i just follow the instruction given by teacher last week. lyk tat also got wrong mar? no right? student listen to instruction given by a teacher. got wrong mar?? nvm la, u all want blame. go ahead, everything i'm in a wrong anyway. won't be a perfect..
Sigh..

I cn admit tat nowadays i hav become more lazy to do things but sometimes i will do de. just i nid some time. i noe exam is around the corner but i haven start revising yet. is abit rush but who ask me don wan early prepare for it?

Whatever they do always right, we child or student always wrong. we do abit also kena scold sometime. but do i wish for tat? i also don wan as well. i also don have a choice. emotion make me more lazy le. sigh.. hope won't be lazy after mid-yr exam.

Anyway, i will prepare for it. at here, wish all my friends will pass with flying colours & as well as my mei mei.

I'm worried for u, don think too much. kay? u won't take it too much things inside ur heart or brain. i don wan to see u lyk tat. just hope u will giv urself some relax and clam time. if u nid help, cn always ask me de. try my best to help. if cnt then i'm sry abt it.. as least i noe wad is going on or rather wad happen. all u nid is some relax time, not stressful time. it won't help much.

2010-04-20T21:02:00.001+08:00

Other ppl cn go out late while i cnt, why lyk tat de? seriously life is meaningless.
For example, ppl go out till 11 plus. won't be call back home.
But me leh, once 11 plus. phone calls started coming.
Why can't they understand? one mth, one time leh. also not everything.
Sigh, they won't understand.
Argh!!! very confuse!!!

This world is totally not fair de lor. sigh..
got choice, i also wan to go out with my frens late too.
sigh..

Date:
2/2/2010 - 2 mths & 19 days
13/1/2010 - 3 mths & 7 days

Those days we had, is unforgetable. will forever stay in my mind.
Hopefully cn patch back, will be a different me ler. won't be last time.
I cn promise u tat, for sure!!!
If cnt then it's alright. sigh..
I noe ur ans to it ler, on 12/4/2010. those sweet & romantic.

2010-04-19T23:04:00.001+08:00

Alright, let's talk abt friday (16/4/2010) & today (19/4/2010).

Hmmm so starts off with last friday de,

After sch, went home with brian as we going to have our lunch at blk 16. near his house. was in a rush cox gonna go back to tampines to meet aloysius. sigh.. then quickly have our meal then he went home to have his clothes changed. then after that follow by me. rushing through to bath & preparing things to go out to meet aloysius. while waiting, he keep calling to rush me. i trying my best to faster abit le. wad cn i do? bus slow mar? it can't be help de wad? right abt tat? sigh.. after when we reach there, we wait for andrea to come before going up to aloy's house. hmmm it was fun plus passing windows 7 too. hehe, so gd. i luv it.^^ have some chat plus fun too. my 2nd memories with my frenzs ya. hmmm after tat went on9 to check wad show is available & nice. so we decided to watch "Shuttle Island". quite nice de when watching the trailer. after tat, went out to meet daryl & bx. as they arrived. meeting up then go buy movie tickets. went to gv but they have problem in it so we went to cq to buy it then. actually cnt buy de, thanks to brian tat we cn brought it. hmmm cn say is quite bored de, this show. blame aloy lor. nice lor. nvm la, at least we enjoy abit? hehe.^^

Then we went to have our dinner (i didn't eat plus no mood). then jt they all come meet us, it was a nice time with they all. hope have it again sometime. funny part is aloy lyk a tour guide lor. haha.^^ still have night safari de. haha.:)

Today (19/4/2010)

1st, 3 period of DNT,

nothing to talk abt..

1 period of English,

nothing to talk abt..

Recess,

stay at detension area to revise my maths cox got maths test. yup.^^

2 period of Science,

had our sitting arrangement plus some test as well, bored. zzz..
nothing to write..

2 period of Maths,

cher give us a paper & treat it as a exam. all cn de except 3 qus. sigh..

Lastly, 2 period of Assembly,

had a talk abt exam rules & regulation plus a malay tradition art. after tat, had a talk abt road thing & smoking case. canning two from our class de. sigh..

It's looks lyk today i have nth to talk abt, sorry abt it.

2/2/2010 - 2 mths & 17 days

13/1/2010 - 3 mths & 6 days

Miss those days, sigh..

2010-04-15T22:02:00.000+08:00

Hmmm let's start off with today.

Assembly,
had 2 programs today. one is the recycle & another one is best student award. (I think)
congrats to yb, jt & my dear mei mei too. you guys did a wonderful job.^^

1st, 2 period of MT,
had a listening test and some teaching as well. hmmm got one teacher come to our cl period. which is a sec 5 home teacher. shall not talk abt bad things here.

2 period of EL,
teach some report & article report as well. hmmm kinda bored cox don't feel lyk study. so had some chat with aloy & daryl. talk abt tmr things and some other stuff.

Recess,
at first, they had their breakfast but then some f****** den came by our class. i knew she will come de. luckily i didn't eat in class or else maybe serious case le. so suai sia, sigh nvm.. blame bad luck today. had 1 hr detention plus cimin they all. hmmm maybe they should change the rules lor. but cnt, -_-'

3 period of Ace,
everytime work, work, work. not sian de meh? haiyo. cnt tahan this co-home teacher cox today mr ashiq didn't come due to on course. her lesson suck lyk hell, so boring. zzz.. i didn't care abt her & i go zzzz le cox kinda tired when i wake up in the morning too. slp also cnt.. wahlao leh!!! mr ashiq more better then u la but no choice cox u r our co-home teacher.
sigh..

Lastly, 3 period of CPA,
had some good time today cox cn use com due to finish coursework le. if nvr use, hardly the time will pass de. agree with me? only 4 person didn't finish their coursework but today is the deadline le. hmmm wish them gd luck bahhx.^^

Cn say today is kinda bored but not today's assembly, is interesting & funny too. haha.^^
Hope u will pass 2.4km tmr, kor jia you for u & proud of u too.^^

2/2/2010 - 2 months & 13 days
13/1/2010 - 3 months & 2 days

2010-04-13T11:11:00.001+08:00

Sigh, today is our 3rd month if we haven break. kinda sad though, how i wish the days we have. i very treature abt our relationship this yr but i know my attiuide to u haven change..

For now, i let u be alone and peaceful. like i say, got anything. i try to help u as i can. after 'N' level then we talk bahhx.

Take care, my dear mei mei..

2010-04-12T18:24:00.009+08:00

Tomorrow is the day, the 3rd month if we haven break (13/4/2010).
Aww, so miss that time we were tgt.
I really regretted abt it, sigh..

The days without u is 2 months & 9 days (2/2/2010).
Life is miserable without u, cn hardly concentrate on everything.
Including studies as well..

For now, we won't talk abt it.
Just concentrate on our studies, other we can wait till "N" level is over.
And one more thing, don't ever say yourself lyk tat. it will hurt all those around u.

*My true words
To: My dear mei mei

Although this 3 yrs, i didn't cherish u but i did my soul-thinking. why i keep being lyk tat? u don't lyk my attitude and so on but i trying to change it.

To me, this yr is my most memories yr with u. so i very cherish our relationship this yr. but i don't know y all the sudden break up. it makes me sad when i saw it. maybe cox my attitude to u haven change bahhx. it could be the reason for it.

I cry cox is so painful & harsh abt this decision u have make to me. i did say i don wan to talk to u but i cnt bear with it? my heart wishes to talk to u but i just couldn't face u.

Indeed, i kinda easy petty but do i hav a choice? no right? i also don wish for that but i was born lyk tat mar?

I cn admit, i have lots of bad point i had. but all i nid is "Time". time will prove i have change le.

But i really hope that we cn tgt again but if cnt then it's okay. i won't force u.

I have gone through with them (last time) but only u have change me and the person i luv as well.

Is nice to know u. whether is friend, gan mei or couple. u r the only girl u have change me. that is my studies. (I'm grateful)

I cn tell u last time i don lyk to study hard or working hard de but for u, i been working hard in sec 2. for ur sake. even without u, i still carry on being working hard on it. cox got u, i will try to do it. even though is it impossible.

Wad i wanted to say is here, one last word or rather sentence. "I will always protect u, even if u r my mei, friend or couple."

I won't disturb u and shall leave u alone for now. now we both concentrate on our studies bahhx. jia you wor, my mei mei.^^

Kor kor wish u successful in everything so don give yourself stress and try to relax too. got anything, cn come tell me or via sms.

2010-04-10T19:30:00.003+08:00

Today is my friend, JingYi & her stead 3 months le.
Congrats ya.
Wish u guys last forever too.^^

3 more days till 13/4/2010, if we haven break. it will be 3 months le. how i wish we cn last forever but..
Sigh..
Hope time is all i need..
and time will prove tat i hav change..

Without her is alr 2 months & 8 days, i really miss her though..
I don't blame u for replying those msg to me cause we aren't lyk last time le.
Last time still have topics to talk abt but now no le..
I really do hope we r lyk last time, have laughter and so on..
I do wishes for tat..

Even though we r friends or gan mei & kor,
I will still protect, care, concern abt u de.
You r always and the one only girl i luv, no one else.
I cn promise u all that for sure.

2010-04-09T20:32:00.000+08:00

Let's talk abt past 2 days, sure is long story to write too.
Tmr i then write abt today's de. which is 9/4/2010 - Friday.
So let's start off with 7/4/2010,

On that day, we didn't have sch. we went to Pasir Ris CarPark C to have our cross-country run. it was a nice run but when i stop, my heart & stomach started to act up & feel painful as i run abit.. sigh, must train bahhx. this yr is different from last yr, they divided to 2 groups. one is comparative & non-comparative. (if i not wrong for the words.) i choose comparative cox aloy ask me to pei me so i do but is a nice run ya althought didn't get top 10, it's okay. at least is good to train my stamina too. it was hot on that day. and even got darker abit as well.

Yesterday (8/4/2010 - Thursday)

1st, 2 period of MT,
We went to library to have our lesson there. i ask teacher, y all the sudden go library wor? teacher say, is her decision to go there. so i follow her to go out, without the laptop. so we went there to relax & do our own stuff while teacher test them on oral. at first, i dono where to sit. so i sit with cimin & huimin fo awhile then i go to daryl they all. they all play "True or Dare". haha, quite fun & funny as well ya. haha.^^
bx kena slap by 2 or 3 times, jethro (dono wad he do) & daryl kena by many times lor. daryl keep choosing "Dare" de. they sort of bully him ya. keep asking jt to come over or _________ lor. so bad sia, they both. (bx & jethro). nvm la, just a game. bx is kena bully the bad things, haha. they ask him to touch cimin's hair & pull huimin's hairband. haha, most funnies mt class i had ya. hehe.^^

2 period of English,
Skip this part cause i forgot ler, ps..

Recess,
stay at class and relax plus listen music too, hehe. go down to canteen also nth to do, as well stay at class lor. and lastly, hope cher won't come by. i hate it very much man. argh!!!

3 period of ACE,
Do our testimonial in class. must use abit thinking of some parts ya. okay lar. then talk abt our mid-yr exam stuff. argh, say till that part. i don lyk it cox my first paper is started on my birthday. argh, why same as last yr de. sigh.. nvm.

Lastly, 3 period of CPA,
Nth to do as do finish our coursework le. then go walk walk lo. really nth to do plus bored too. then talk to my buddy abit then i go pei daryl. hehe, we secretly listen to music but when 2nd or 3rd period. Mr cheng let's us listen to phone but i guess cn listen but not so loud. later disturb other ppl who haven done their coursework. next week, last le. can say is deadline bahhx. who know's? oo??

2010-04-06T21:49:00.000+08:00

Tmr got cross-country run at Pasir Ris CarPark C.
Hope it won't get breatheless easily.
Wish me success ya. Accompany aloysius to run. sigh.. never mind, it's okay.:)

For now, won't think abt it.
After "N" level then think through carefully bahhx.

Take care everyone.:)

2010-04-05T21:59:00.000+08:00

2 Feb 2010 - 2 mth 3 days (Without her)
13 Jan 2010 - 2 mth 23 days ( The days with her)

sigh..

2010-04-05T21:52:00.000+08:00

sry tat this week & last week nvr blog due to lazyness,
sigh, got wad choice leh??

today's morning assembly got the "Speak Standard English". quite funny ya, the boy. haha.:)

1st, 3 period of DNT
same thing too. do our own things. sigh why i juz cnt overcome my lazyness leh?
sigh..

1 period of English
go through the practice paper that ms soh gives us de and ans as well.
nth much to talk abt..

Recess
stay back in class to slack & wait for food to come but juz drink milo due to my fren buy wrongly..
it's okay de, won't blame u cox u r my fren.

2 period of Science
go through the science practice paper & ans.
hmmm i trying my best to understand all the chapter again..

2 period of Maths
doing some topical maths sec 3 de & go through some topics from last yr cox some of us maybe forgotten ler so refresh our memory ya. haha.:)

Lastly, Assembly
this was a first time that our assembly in this 4 yrs of secondary sch life's. this was a wonderful assembly which is lots of laughter ya. haha & hope it will forever be lyk tat again..

after sch, rush to aloy's house to take some $$ to mr yeo cox for the concert. total $60. after that, i run back to sch cox lyk gonna late for dnt remedial. run as fast as i cn but i..
sigh.. kinda breatheless ever since that day, how arh?
stay till 5pm then wait for daryl they all. while waiting, mr lee call me & bx.
he say, when u both gonna work on ur model & i replied him. is all my lazyness, how to work?
he say, change ur lazyness. i was lyk is impossible lor.. not one day cn ler..
sigh nvm..

2010-03-28T19:36:00.000+08:00

my dear mei mei, hope u r alritez. i'm sure they got reason to it de. is see they wan to let go or not?
sigh..

2010-03-24T21:34:00.004+08:00

wont be blog tis week..

when i free then i blog..

sry abt it..

2010-03-22T22:04:00.001+08:00

early in the morning, had our assembly and of cause some show is going on. is about "Speaking Good English". kinda funny ya. hehe.:)

alritez, let's talk abt today..

1st, 3 period of DNT

sian lor, now change to 1st period.. sigh.. no choice lar. then awhile hav a briefing on our remedial de. they extend till 5 plus ler. sigh.. stress lar!!!!

1 period of English

ms soh show us her trip to india to help those small child.. hmmm cn say quite ke lian de.. sigh..

Recess..

stay at class as in stomach pain.. so didnt eat anything as no wei kou..

2 period of Science

go through abt the chpt we hav for our 'N' level exam. then cher gives us exam paper to practice our last yr topic..

2 period of Math

teach us abt the cone today.. kinda messy n don understand abit althought i do by myself ler.. sigh..

Lastly, 2 period of Assembly

had some shows today.. quite funny de, haha.:) then talk abt our oral exam n so on.. blah blah blah..

lazy to say.. psps..

stay back for dnt remedial, is super duper sian de lor.. no idea came out, i guess i don lyk thinking bahhx? dono??

tat all, quite a bored day today. sigh..

2010-03-16T20:52:00.002+08:00

Being a person is painful, ritez abt tat? for some is not lar.
kinda painful.. sigh..

Being a person is stress abt other things..
lyk relationship, studies, hw's n etc..

Being a person is hard to let go of certain things..
lyk u love ones or ur partner u hav go through wif them? ritez abt tat?

sigh.. life is meaningless.. kinda wish to giv up everything..
but i cnt. i promise my fellow frens n cher ler..

althought being a person is painful, stressful, hard to let go n etc.. but i trying hard to do it..
pls!! cn giv me some time? changing my personality, attuide n etc..

other nid tym as well, u ask them to change also not so fast change de mar? not lyk 1 min then change liao..

tis world is impossible to change so quickly abt ur attuide n etc.. all those things nid time..
time will prove everything..

2010-03-15T22:23:00.001+08:00

today went out to meet my buddy (shakirah) cox she wanna buy earpiece which cn be adjust the volume ya. so i pei her go buy then.:)

after buying using her voucher plus a refill eraser as in she has finish the eraser? haha.:) then follow by lunch which my buddy haven eaten, so i pei her go eat & i not hungry cox i eat ler then come & meet her de.
then chat awhile go buy movie tickets as she say go home also sian. same as my thinking too, haha.:) then suddenly she dont hav $$. so we go to the atm machine to withdraw her $$, hehe.:) okay ler, go back to the cinema to buy 2 tickets of "Alice In Wonderland". buy ler then go walk walk due to enough tym as the movie starts at 3.45pm.
after tat, we go buy some popcorn n drinks to the cinema to eat. hehe.:) quite a nice show ya. enjoy it plus funny for some parts.:)
when sch reopen, i pay u back $$ ya. & thx for ur treat as well. ty ty. so nice to hav a nice buddy ya.:)
i'm grateful to noe u.:)

2010-03-12T20:16:00.001+08:00

sry abt ytd tat i didnt blog, alritez let's talk abt ytd n today..
let's start off wif ytd then today bahhx..
11/3/2010 (Thur)
1st, 2 period of Mother Tongue
cher didnt come so relief cher came. then hav a chat wif huimin n andrea. is goin well lar.. after a nice chat then another cher come ler. is their home cher, mrs wong. sigh tis is sian de lor.. so bored tat can't even talk abt it..

2 period of English
go through our test paper 2, quite okay lar. juz pass by 2.5 marks.. lucky me but will try harder de. hmm hmm..

Recess..
stay at class to complete my dnt design journal cox cher wants it by today after sch.. so i do it lor.. no choice mar, ritez?

3 period of ACE
giv out the book n off we go to com lab 6 to complete our ace project ya.. but do some searching for our career. in the end, i complete it n then print it out. after tat i hav done, i help my boss daryl to do as well.. so do for him too lor.. haha..:)

Lastly, 3 period of CPA
same thing, 1st period practice for those hu not sure abt it.. then 2 of my frens ask me n i tell them donno how many times ler still dono, haix nvm then i teach again lor. no choice.. then after tat teach other ppl lor, i quite famous liao.. ppl keep calling me here n there, haha..:) but is tired lar, keep go here n there but no choice mar. they r my frens.. then finish ler, start our coursework.. change some of the errors i made n correct it ya. after tat, i print it out.. n it's done.. but the 3D sketch i redo again, make me fed onli cox i dono how to sketch 3D handle but i will keep trying de.. by sch reopen, it will be done. confirm de!!! thx for cher hu correct me my english, ty ty..:)

after sch, went back wif bx..
haix another boring day.. nvm..

today, 12/3/2010 (Fri)
1st, 2 period of Science
get back our science paper 1 n 2.. haix did quite badly for ca2 de but ca3 okok onli.. go through the ca3 paper, suddenly my stomach pain then i go to the toliet.. next tym i will do better de.. is a promise ya!!

2 period of PE
mr ow didnt take us so another cher take us pe lor.. but is quite fun lar.:) enjoy it.:) hmm nth to say abt pe today, sry ya..

Recess..
go back to class wif aloy then went to class hav a nice breeze then after tat the fcuker cher tells us to come out.. then go out lor.. then she say next tym i don wan to c u both in class if not i hold u 2 responsiblity. then okay ler go gents n change lor.. fcuk sia, i happy leh.. also not ur class, i didnt steal leh? nvm.. c u small, i bear wif it!! argh!!

2 period of English
read newspaper n doin math too. don wish to talk abt tis one cox make me fed up during class.. don wish to mention it, sry..

Lastly, 2 period of Mother Tongue
cher didnt come again, so sian.. haix.. i take tis period to slp cox no mood.. sigh.. nth to talk abt too..

don wish to talk abt after sch matter.. sry.. sigh..

thx to aloy, yb, jethro, wh n daryl tat help me cheer up.

thx ya.:) i'm grateful.:)

promise both cher tat after holiday, i will buck up my studies de n i will de!!

is a promise!!

2010-03-11T10:56:00.003+08:00

currently at com lab 6 cox we doin our ACE project..
stay tuned for my post..

2010-03-10T20:39:00.003+08:00

life is meaningless to me cox i getting tired of my life ler.. sigh..

alritez let's talk abt today..

morning go meet jt, daryl n cimin as we go sch today ya.. but then is raining too sigh..
so share umbrella lor.. no choice mar ritez?
today assembly got some kind of show.. hmm lyk some dance? but is nice to watch lar..

1st, 3 period of DNT
same thing, do our design journal at class.. go chat wif my buddy shakirah.. hmm indeed dnt is quite bored nowadays but in march holiday time, we nid to submit our model which is after march holiday.. hope i cn finish it bahhx..

1 period of English
nth to write abt..
zzz..

Recess..
teach cimin maths cox she dono how to do so i teach her.. cn say is quite funny abt her sometimes ya. cox she today lyk so stress tat she cnt finish it.. haha nvm her lar as long as she got finish then cn ler..:)

3 period of CPA
same thing, 1st period practice for those hu dono how to do their coursework ya.. it's alritez wif me as long as u don hav so much question to ask me.. i will be very frustrated abt it.. then after tat do our coursework liao.. change some things which mr lee wanted us to do. hmm he say tat our features nid to show all of it co it will be easy for them to mark it.. then change lor plus it doesn't take so long tym to do it mar.. after finish tat then i went to slp liao.. tired lar.. cnt tahan leh??

Lastly, 2 period of Maths
today cher teach us abt pyramid thing lar.. cn say is quite blur n don understand, argh!!! nvm, tmr go ask my tuition cher cn liao. haha..:) then we do practice 4C.. wah cn tell u all i long tym nvr got so many qus wrong ler, haix sad sad but i try to understand lar.. no choice.. haha today so funny abt aloy, he slp lyk.. erm dono wad to say leh but cn tell u is funny lar. haha..:) then go some hw to do as well cox next week holiday liao mar? ritez abt tat? so i try to finish my tb as soon as possible lar..

btw happy 2mth anniversary to jingyi n ivan..:)

tat all for today, enjoy reading..:)

thx to all my frens hu r there for me..

i'm grateful abt it, hope don loss contact ya..:)

realli ty so much abt it ya..:)
and one more, forever gan kor n mei too..:)

2010-03-09T20:20:00.002+08:00

after march holiday, it will be a new life for me..

plus all my bad points will started to changed too..

forever frens n gan kor n mei ya..:)

alritez let's talk abt today..

1st, 2 period of P.E.

had our running today. Mr ow ask us to run 6 rounds, after tat went to do sit-up.. wah cn tell u, my breathing is hard ler.. i dono y? ask mr ow, he said i force myself, tat's y i hard to breathe. is half true lar.. sometimes my stomach the area is pain mar then i force myself.. today sit-up 1 set is 30 then after tat is 20.. then monkey bar, don wish to talk abt it.. sigh.. so tired today..

2 period of English

nth to say, got anything then i will write.. sry abt tat..

Recess..

stay at class again as i doin my maths.. n then cool down awhile cox too hot n sweatly as well..

thx daryl for treating me a sushi ya, ty so much..:)

3 period of Science

1st period, self study for chapter 16, 17 & 18. after tat we start from chapter 17 n 18 first cox is easy mar, so cher start wif tat paper first. after tat, self study again on chapter 16 which is acids, salt n bases.. *if i not wrong?

then start the paper again.. total marks for both papers r 50 marks.. hmm maybe will pass or maybe fail bahhx.. dono? c results on fri bahhx..

Lastly 3 period of Maths

had a long tym standing cox table not straight n litters on the floor.. nvm lar, bear wif it lor.. then after tat cher teach us "Area of Sector" then do Practice 4B on Qus1, 2 n 3.. then after finish tat, we do our Topical Maths which is page 56, Qus 9. do ler then marks ans from Practice 4A, 4B, Topical Maths pg 55 n 56 Qus 8 n 9.. but i alr done it ler.. so today no hw ya.. haha..:)

after sch pei my fren jt go walk walk at t1 as she wanna go somewhere else? which i dono? haha..:) then after tat meet up wif aloy n his fren.. then they go buy burgers to eat. aloy share wif me as he is not hungry, thz leh..:) then go straight to aloy house to slack plus cn play xbox 360 too.. haha so fun till don wan go home liao.. i lyk tat de, once play game, i wont stop de.. hehe..:) bad habit lar.. trying to change too.. hmm hmm!!

tat's all for today, enjoy reading..:)

so sian tat holiday is coming, i realli nth to do..

hope my frens cn ask me go out, if not at home keep nagged..

sigh..

i very tired of it ler cox nowadays i hardly cn concerntrate at class but not math lar..

i realli realli tired of my life..

life is meaningless anyway..

haix..

2010-03-08T17:00:00.001+08:00

no use thinking abt the hope ler, she's ritez. thx for ur chatting ya. i finally found my ans to it ler..
wont say it here..

alritez, let's talk abt today..

1st, 2 period of Science
sure is boring ya but i don care leh, juz lay on the table n slp cox i very tired since tat day on.. but it will soon over.. i will buck up after the march holiday, it will de. cher saw me slp then ask me to be a flagpole? cox my 2 frens didn't sing the national anthem (spell wrong, tell me. ty..) slp onli nid to stand de meh? haiyo?? nvm lar, he happy cn ler.. then i go replace wif hafiq.. zzzzz.. plus tmr hav test on ca2.. nvm.. fail lor.. as now don hav formula liao.. u ask me go remember words, i will slp de.. within 2 min..

2 period of Maths
when mr yew came in, i thought he very angry n no mood de but is not.. after we sit down then cher keep talk n talk abt the test cox some didn't do well.. half the class fail.. hope i cn pass, if not i will die de.. argh!!! if i fail, i will learn my mistakes de.. next tym try my best bahhx.. hmm hmm!! after tat cher teach new chapter, which is mesuration (if i not wrong?) at first i don quite understand but after my yew teach finish, abit go to my brain..

Recess..
stay at class doin my Practice 4A as i not happy cox once i got wrong, i will keep trying till i noe wad's tat qus wants.. but finally i hav done, onli left topical maths..

1 period of English
same thing, cher came in n scold those ppl whose keep disturbing the class.. sigh.. don wish to talk abt english as i hav nth to write abt..

3 period of DNT
sigh sian.. hate dnt sia, how wish cn drop tis subject but cnt leh.. confirm liao.. haix sad sad.. my buddy shakirah also wants to drop but cher say cnt liao.. zzz sian lar.. so regret to choose tat subject..

Lastly 2 period of ACE
watch video.. dono y today feel lyk sleeping? maybe cox too tired or is it tat day onwards then i lyk tat liao?

after sch went home wif daryl n jt.. so fast one day liao.. hmm tym flies ya.. haix so regret for not zhen xi her but is no use now.. i alr decide on my ans ler..

tat's all for today..

tell me which post is better? on fri or today?

tell me in msn, ty..:)

after march holiday, it will be a new life for me or should i say a new start?

without her is also alritez ler,

be frens n gan kor n mei bahhx..

i think it will be better tat way..

hope all girls don lyk me, tat will be gd.. sigh..

2010-03-06T17:42:00.005+08:00

i realli concern abt u, y can't u understand?

trying to help, also got wrong mar?

i noe i kinda busybody but i juz wanna help u n solve too?

y u cnt understand my thoughts for u?

haix sad sad..

sigh..

13/1/2010 on Wednesday at 5.52pm (together)
1mth 20 days

2/2/2010 on Tuesday at 8 plus (forgot liao) (Break)
1mth n 5 days

2010-03-05T22:03:00.001+08:00

saying here to all my frens, thx for telling me or pei me chat when i feeling down n etc.. ty so much ya..:) i'm grateful to u guys, own u all ya..

alritez let's talk abt today..

1st & 2nd period: Science
copy down some notes again on the same paper.. n then talk abt craps.. nvm, i also no interested abt science anymore.. ever since tat day on.. sigh..

3rd & 4th period: P.E
today pe conbine classes ya.. whoa today different leh, y i say different? cox mr ow pei us running tgt ya, haha..:) haix but sad tat he overtake me where i was in the 4th round.. sad sad..:( nvm, try my best next tym when mr ow got pei us running..:) after finish running, we rest for awhile.. cn say is tiring lar cox is very very hot!!! finish resting, i run wif vincent, wei hong n aloy.. me n vincent ran 4 rounds.. cn tell u tat when i was running, i discover tat my breathing is hard to breath in.. haix maybe gonna die? i dono.. c next week still got lyk tat mar, if yes then must tll cher ler.. sigh.. play badminton wif eric n wei hong awhile as eric wants to play then play wif him lor..

5th period: Recess
went to buy marker when mr ow dismiss us for passing the running ya.. buy ler then ask wei hong lent me $ cox i don hav much $, thx leh, wei hong.. will return u back on next mon ya..:) ty ty.. after tat when to change to uniform n went to class to write the english things on the board.. *Guys, remember to bring ur edusave for the "The New Paper" n the $5.50 for the english 10 yrs series. pls remember to bring, ty ty..:)

6th & 7th period: English
sigh so bored, everytime do hw n hw.. cn come out wif something new meh? nvm.. zzz.. nth to say abt english, sry abt tat..

8th & 9th period: Mother Tongue
help cher take laptop n cher arrange those who haven take their chinese test.. after tat, we read a new chapter n then laugh.. as in cher laugh mar? haha..:)

kinda sad n wanna cry now.. aww.. haix sad sad..:(
tat's all for today, enjoy reading ya.. wont blog on sat n sun cox nth to write abt.. onli sch days then i blog..

2010-03-04T20:09:00.002+08:00

i'm back again.. now let's start n talk abt today too..:)

1st & 2nd period: Mother Tongue
had our ca2 test today but still in the end.. fail.. haix..

3rd & 4th period: English
same as usual.. work, work work.. haix so bored but cher didnt come again as in on course till monday.. haix..

5th period: Recess
stay at class to do my dnt but i kinda lazy so i leave it aside ya..

6th, 7th & 8th period: ACE
check our personal contact info.. after tat go to com lab, to do our career thing lar.. haha so funny today, we went outside quietly to let brandon slp cox he slp so soundly then we don wan disturb him lar. but it was mr ashiq's idea de..

9th, 10th & 11th period: CPA
same thing. 1st period had our practice then after tat do our coursework ya.:) i ask mr cheng to help me copy a new work documentation cox i do till lyk kinda mess.. so i ask cher cn mar, he say okay.:) not ly mr lee, say's cnt.. mr cheng more better lor.. tat's y i lyk him to teach cpa, onli some hu keep disturbing the class onli.. i hate it man!!!

after sch, pei daryl to wait for jingting to finish her english remedial.. after tat we went to simei to take jingting's sis phone.. then we went to eat, i didnt eat cox i don feel hungry plus no $$ too.. nvm ya, not hungry also.. haha..:)

tat's all for today, hope u enjoy reading..:)
btw thx to yibao for lending me his phone to listen n compare my speaker on my dad phone as i hear my speaker abit weird de.. btw ty so much.. bro..:)

trying my best to change all my bad points ya, is for her n as well as for me too..

i will try every method to chage de.. hope i will get some progress ya..

haix sad sad..:(:(

2010-03-04T11:43:00.002+08:00

hmm now my heart is 50-50. which means tat half of my heart i hav giv up on her liao n another 50 is still missing her n luv her.. haix sad sad..:(

saying tis for now, ltr when i get back home, i will blog again.. now currently at com lab cox now is ACE period ya..

2010-03-03T21:11:00.000+08:00

haix mei arh, i kinda worry for u leiis? haix sad sad.. hope u will be alritez, anything cn come to me de as we r gan kor n mei mar, correct?

alritez let's talk abt today.. hmm let's start of wif..

1st, 2nd & 3rd period: DNT
haix same as usual, do ur own work!! argh!!! still haven decide wad to do leiis? but thx to shakirah for helping me to change my idea ya.. ty so much, u r a nice buddy..:) ty ty..

4th period: English
Ms soh didnt come due to on course.. so another cher giv us work to do ya.. haix sian.. but anyhow do ya.. don care.. but not in exam lar.. exam i will be serious de, no worries..:)

5th period: Recess
stay at class, as usual.. but today different cox got math ca2 mar so my frens nid help on it.. so i teach them lor but don blame me if i didnt say clearly cox sometime i kinda talk fast or didnt explain clearly.. sry arh but trying to talk slowly as i cn..

6th, 7th & 8th period: CPA
1st period do some practice as some nid's help or recap.. after tat coursework starts.. hmm i cn say tat my document isn't tat gd due to my english (again) but i trying to change some.. thx to mr lee for advice for me.. i will try my best de!! Jia you everyone..:)

9th & 10th period: Math
relief cher gives us some time to practice n revise our math, after tat the test starts.. cn say quite hard bahhx, i guess i will get lower then ca1 bahhx.. but hope it cn be higher lar.. hope bahhx..

tat all for today ya, hope u enjoy..:)

haix so hope tat i cn go back to 2008 tat time then i will cherish her more n change history.. but i guess cnt bahhx unless some ppl invent bahhx..

but if it was me, i would de..

2010-03-02T20:12:00.003+08:00

hi guys, back to blog again.. feeling much better ler but same things happen again. abt phone things lar, nvm.. don wan mention it if not make me fed up onli..

alritez, let's talk abt today..

1st & 2nd period: P.E
same as usual, running ya.. run 3 rounds, 2 sets. after tat, do sit-up.. 2 sets of 30.. doin tat makes my stomach cramp.. trying hard.. hmm hmm.. finish liao, play some games.. which is floorball.. always the same game.. i wan badminton lar!!

3rd & 4th period: English

usual doin assignment tat cher giv us, copy some notes on a exercise book abt nouns, verbs n so on..(lazy to type it..) *btw some notice ya, Pls bring $5.50 and ur edusave form (The New Paper) by tmr, ty..:)

5th period: Recess
stay at class again as don wish to go down again due to some reason.. haix nowadays don feel lyk goin down unless cher wants to meet us then i go down..

6th, 7th & 8th period: Science
doin some work on wb, after tat go through ans.. (haix don feel lyk having science ler as in nowadays so hard, without those formula ler.. sad sad..) then when cher teaching, i took out my phone n keep typing her number.. i also dono y? maybe too miss her ler bahhx? then cher saw it n keep my phone.. so fed up when valerie go play my phone, don lyk it man as tat is not mine, i juz borrow from my dad.. not goin to bring ler, i will bring my old one.. tat i wont mind.. quite angry wif cher. (dono y too?) after tat giv out some notes which is the next chapter.

9th, 10th & 11th period: Maths
cher goin through some practice as tmr is Maths CA2. after tat, we do some work on wb..

haix sian, tmr dnt.. still haven think of wad to make leiis?? how?? haix so regret now tat i choose dnt as my first choice.. sad sad.. plus tmr CPA, my favourite subject ya. goin to double-check my work.. i gonna work hard.. but first must change my lazyness (spell wrong, tell me).. the very first important point ya..

2010-03-01T15:34:00.001+08:00

sry guys, don feel lyk blogging today ya.. cox of some problems today plus now full of anger n sadness inside me.. haix..
next tym i will post ya.. onli for today..

2010-02-28T20:53:00.001+08:00

haix y i cnt change my bad points?? i trying to use all the methods to change to where i was sec 1 tat tym.. ppl do change but if they try hard, they will change de. juz nid a matter of time.. btw i'm sry to jingyi ya.. so sry abt it..

today is the end of cny liao, cnt receive hong bao ler.. aww!! nvm still hav next yr ya, haha..:)

2010-02-28T08:47:00.005+08:00

it always r bored during sat n sun cox nth to do.. u ask me do hw n etc, i kinda lazy.. haix wad's happen to me nowadays?? ever since 2nd Feb 2010, everything started to change in my life.. hmm how i wish cn turn back to 2008 which is sec 2 tat tym.. i realli wan the old her back in sec 2.. argh!!!!

2010-02-27T23:54:00.004+08:00

haix still missing her though.. but i cnt lyk tis, i alr promise to my fren jingyi liao so i wont be sad ler & tat's a promise ya..:)

2010-02-27T08:29:00.004+08:00

alritez, let's talk abt ytd n 25/2/2010.

25/2/2010 (Thur)

1st & 2nd period: Mother Tongue
haix kena scold by cher cox use hp.. sry abt it.. haix.. she is having her own life.. haix sad sad..

3rd & 4th period: English
juz go through ans on the worksheet..

5th period: Recess
didn't go again plus vice-principal came in our class n talk talk lor.. haix so bored.. luckily i quickly keep my headphone...

6th, 7th & 8th period: ACE
check our "N" level subject n etc plus a GIRO form too.. didn't go to the lab..

9th, 10th & 11th period: CPA
do our "N" coursework but for 1st period is practice & ask question. after tat then start. but i hav done it ler, haha..:) but Mr Lee ask me double-check c got any mistake or wad, juz change.. as cher cnt let me surf net or etc.. so next lesson, i juz double-check c got any error or mistake bahhx.. hopefully i cn pass my CPA ya..:)

26/2/2010 (Fri)

1st & 2nd period: Science
talk abt health plus copying some notes too.. then talk abt men & women tat thing lor.. haix no interest due to relationship problem.. i'm sry for fail ur science, Mr Ashiq. so sry ya.. haix..

3rd & 4th period: P.E
same as usual, run 3 rounds after tat play game.. not in tat mood to play game so running more bahhx.. waste tym or should i say kill tym?? while running, she saw me but has no feeling de.. haix nvm.. she has her life.. i hav done my duties liao.. care for her, concern & etc..

5th period: Recess again...
went back to class to relax myself cox too hot liao plus i run somemore too.. so rest awhile then go change.. after tat i went to canteen to look for them cox nid to report to Mr Ow. cox of english lor... nvm..

6th & 7th period: English
had our enlish ca2, kinda hard n abit easy onli.. hopefully i cn pass bahhx.. nowadays my subject is down ler.. but not math.. if math falls, i will die.. comfirm tuition cher scold n scold de.. i try bahhx.. haix..

8th & 9th period: Mother Tongue
dono y so tired n hardly cn concertrate lor.. nvm but i tell cher the reason ler.. haix i realli wan her back but it is impossible de cox she has change to another person liao... haix sad sad..

tat is the 2 post, enjoy reading..

2010-02-24T21:04:00.005+08:00

let's talk abt today, hmm first thing first..

First to third period: DNT
it was so boring lor, i hate it man.. haix but got wad choice, bear wif it lor.. continue wif our 'N' level coursework..

Fourth period: English
hmm cn say is okay onli lar..

Resting Period: Recess
i stay at class cox don feel lyk goin to recess anymore.. sry for my frens..

Sixth to eighth period: CPA
it start of wif our 'N' level coursework but i was doin well.. no worries for tis subject..:)

Last 2 period: Math
Mr yew juz go through ans in the wb after tat recap on Elimination & Substitution, after tat we do work problems as we didnt go through cox cher skipped it..

2010-02-23T22:13:00.003+08:00

hello, testing ya!! tmr i then post..